Some historicals
Apr. 4th, 2005 11:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
guppiecatWell, now that my keyboard and chair are finally working at home as well as they are at work, I can use the computer for reasonable periods of time again. So, for those who have been out of the loop. (Everyone, probably) Here is a brief synopsis as to what made me finally join up with lj.
Several years ago (Spring 2003) I felt my old friend, depression, starting to pay another visit. As is my normal response, I threw myself into work, but it didn't help. So I threw myself into working on DemiCon. That sorta worked, but (as one might have foreseen) once the convention was over it all came rushing back. So I found something else to throw myself into, which also didn't last. No regrets though, it made me really start to think. Then a good friend of mine died, and as a direct result, I wound up getting involved in the life of my friends D and J. That friendship helped me out a lot, giving me a more realistic perspective about life as well as giving me local people that I could talk to about science/tech/emotional issues that I had previously only been able to do online. That, coupled with my getting a light box and being taught about sushi by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
grrscary finally gave me the tools I needed to actually start addressing the depressive cycle.
Much to my surprise, after making (and sticking to) a schedule of sushi every week and the light box at least four times a week in the winter months, I find that it has been nearly two years since my last serious depression.
So, after being able to rationally analyze my life, I discovered around Spring 2004 that my job was my largest source of unhappiness. Things came to a head that summer, when I finally allowed myself to see that, not only was I not happy there, but that my boss has previously tried (and was still trying) to get rid of me. That's when I completely disappeared. I was busy getting my RHCE and CISSP certifications through a self-guided self-study program. I had to keep it a secret, as my former employer could well have terminated my employment had I shared a desire to leave. (There was a history of things like that.)
Then I started my job search, following the guidelines in Don't Send a Resume. I have to say, that book *rocks*. I started my new job in December 2004, and have just now gotten to a point where I feel relaxed enough to rejoin communities. My first foray back into non-hermit life was at Minicon, where it became apparent to me that lj had become a good way to keep track of my friend's lives. At lot has changed since I last looked into it (when it was new). *smile*
A later entry will catch you all up on my present as opposed to my past. I think I just needed to reflect a bit. Sometimes it helps to know where you've been before you can know clearly where you are going.
Several years ago (Spring 2003) I felt my old friend, depression, starting to pay another visit. As is my normal response, I threw myself into work, but it didn't help. So I threw myself into working on DemiCon. That sorta worked, but (as one might have foreseen) once the convention was over it all came rushing back. So I found something else to throw myself into, which also didn't last. No regrets though, it made me really start to think. Then a good friend of mine died, and as a direct result, I wound up getting involved in the life of my friends D and J. That friendship helped me out a lot, giving me a more realistic perspective about life as well as giving me local people that I could talk to about science/tech/emotional issues that I had previously only been able to do online. That, coupled with my getting a light box and being taught about sushi by
grrscary finally gave me the tools I needed to actually start addressing the depressive cycle.Much to my surprise, after making (and sticking to) a schedule of sushi every week and the light box at least four times a week in the winter months, I find that it has been nearly two years since my last serious depression.
So, after being able to rationally analyze my life, I discovered around Spring 2004 that my job was my largest source of unhappiness. Things came to a head that summer, when I finally allowed myself to see that, not only was I not happy there, but that my boss has previously tried (and was still trying) to get rid of me. That's when I completely disappeared. I was busy getting my RHCE and CISSP certifications through a self-guided self-study program. I had to keep it a secret, as my former employer could well have terminated my employment had I shared a desire to leave. (There was a history of things like that.)
Then I started my job search, following the guidelines in Don't Send a Resume. I have to say, that book *rocks*. I started my new job in December 2004, and have just now gotten to a point where I feel relaxed enough to rejoin communities. My first foray back into non-hermit life was at Minicon, where it became apparent to me that lj had become a good way to keep track of my friend's lives. At lot has changed since I last looked into it (when it was new). *smile*
A later entry will catch you all up on my present as opposed to my past. I think I just needed to reflect a bit. Sometimes it helps to know where you've been before you can know clearly where you are going.
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Date: 2005-04-05 03:25 pm (UTC)Tell me more about sushi treatment!
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Date: 2005-04-11 04:46 am (UTC)is that sushi with or without extra tentacles?
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